{"id":51,"date":"2008-10-20T11:46:47","date_gmt":"2008-10-20T15:46:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gloriacrist.com\/blog\/?p=51"},"modified":"2008-10-26T15:41:47","modified_gmt":"2008-10-26T19:41:47","slug":"oh-and-another-last-minute-thing-i-forgot-to-mention","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.gloriacrist.com\/blog\/2008\/10\/oh-and-another-last-minute-thing-i-forgot-to-mention\/","title":{"rendered":"Oh, and, another last minute thing I forgot to mention&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>no one ever tells you life will throw unexpected zings, darts? poison arrows?\u00a0when you have the least amount of emotional capacity to deal with anything above and beyond the day to day.\u00a0 But there, in the dark corners of things that make us go hmmmmm? or things that make us hum; hum? purr?stutter?pitterpat, skip a beat-miss a step&#8230;something,some <em>thing<\/em>, some one\u00a0unexpected comes a taptaptapping at the door of guess what.\u00a0\u00a0 Things don&#8217;t tap at my door.\u00a0 Things that affect me- someones that affect me bang the door down-in my world of guess what.\u00a0 I had forgotten that.\u00a0( damn it)\u00a0I don&#8217;t experience small affections&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;never have.\u00a0 long been accused of being too sensitive;being too affected( afflicted?)\u00a0 Things stick in my mind, pierce my heart(though that does sound more painful than it should) things get under my skin&#8230;..touches last, scents linger. I remember tastes. I am not good at hiding when shifts are in the midst.\u00a0 I am not subtle in my attempts to act as if nothing has scratched any of my\u00a0surfaces long grown over with the passing of time. In fact, the more I try to cover up the overgrowth-the undone-the unsaid- there I go feeling naked and shameless.\u00a0 Onion girl that I really am.\u00a0 Cover that shit back up.\u00a0 NOW.<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0Quick- gotta keep moving forward and act as if.\u00a0I am responsible.\u00a0 I am capable.\u00a0 I am unavailable for anything above and beyond.\u00a0 period. \u00a0Do not stop to ponder the absolutelyneverwillhappen.\u00a0 Go home.\u00a0 Turn the music up louder.\u00a0 louder.\u00a0 Sing out.\u00a0 cry. sob.\u00a0 repeat.<\/p>\n<p>Hug my daughter-cuddle up beside her and fall asleep.\u00a0 Sleep.\u00a0 Sleep. 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